Throat | Ellen van Neerven #AWWpoetry

Thanks to the 2015 Stella Prize, I picked up Ellen van Neervan’s book, Heat and Light to discover the most extraordinary and eclectic collection of stories. I still think about them five years later. So I was thrilled when they published a book of poetry entitled Throat last year.

It did not have an easy gestation period.

It grew out of a painful and difficult time in Ellen’s life, as I guess so much bittersweet art does. In 2017, one of their poems was included as part of the Year 12 NSW English exam, unbeknownst to them, as the department does not advise any authors “in advance due to security and confidentiality requirements”. A number of the students were upset at having to answer a question about the poem, entitled ‘mango‘ and went on social media to abuse them about it. Some of the abuse became racial and a media storm blew up. 

It came as no surprise, then, that Ellen’s first piece in Throat, they haunt-walk in, addresses this incident.

Memories sometimes come backwards.

I’m walking-dead-haunting-live and there seems nothing left to do but write about my trauma.

But they do not dwell on this. Bigger issues are at play. Colonisation, gender politics, sexuality, culture, country and history. Van Neervan writes about family, community and truth-telling. It’s angry. But it is also very sad and touching and hopeful. Ellen doesn’t indulge in the darkness, despite temptation, instead they reach for honour, courage and healing.

we don’t get to choose our grief 
if you want to pick at mine 
try it on

Many of their poems are like mini stories. They’re fluid and supple and glide across your mind. Ellen’s words pull you up short, then carry you forward. They confront with one hand and smooth with the other. Sometimes.

Who is the custodian of this book? 
How do we co-exist on this page? 
How can we re-imagine custodianship? 
Is this an agreement or a series of 
unanswered questions? 
Are you willing to enter an agreement that is 
incomplete and subject to change?

I wish I had a way with words like van Neerven does, so that I could fully express my appreciation. Perhaps the best I can do is to tell you that Throat is a keeper; it will have a permanent home on my rather scant poetry shelf, next to Alison Whittaker’s Blakwork. And I will make the time to research all of the notes at the end, revealing Ellen’s inspirations and further reading list suggestions. I only do this when I’ve been moved to dig deeper, to understand more fully the author’s intent and point of view.

Van Neerven is conscious of their place in the wider community, and they wear their politics on their sleeve. But this collection is also very personal, an example of an artist exposing their vulnerability to find a universal truth.

Epigraph: Patience Agbabi | Serious Pepper

no-one’s friend | until they find themselves hurting | in the back of the throat  

Patience Agbabi is a spoken word poet from the UK. She describes herself as being ‘bicultural and bisexual’ and she uses her poetry to tackle issues of race and gender identity.

The full stanza from Van Neerven’s epigraph reads:

Everyone’s born | no-one’s found
until they find themselves |
hurting in the back of the throat |
because they’ve swallowed |
serious pepper | painful as truth


  • Van Neerven is a Mununjali Yugambeh (south-east Queensland) poet with Dutch heritage.
  • Shortlisted Queensland Literary Awards: Judith Wright Calanthe Award for a Poetry Collection 2020
  • Winner of the inaugural UQP: Quentin Bryce Award 2020
old people, old country. deep prints 
longtime. longtime yet for you to know 
us. and for us to know our future.
  • Winner of the 2021 Book of the Year, the Poetry Award and the Multicultural Award NSW Premier’s Literary Award. 
Book: Throat
Author: Ellen van Neervan
ISBN: 9780702262913
Publisher: University of Queensland Press
Date: 31st March 2020
Format: Paperback

12 thoughts on “Throat | Ellen van Neerven #AWWpoetry

    1. If you enjoyed Blakwork, then I think that Throat will work for you too. I really hope that Ellen writes more fiction, Heat and Light has left me wanting more of that. The middle section about the water people was wonderful speculative fiction.

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